A Strange Experience

Today was overall an amazing day. I was able to sleep in, had one class, had lunch with a good friend and watched another segment of a movie with the same friend, helped my dad put new shingles on his roof, went to a choir concert by my onesy, and received some pleasant yet unexpected news from a certain someone. This strange experience, however, seems to be the highlight of my entire day of Friday, September 17, 2010. My s dad rented a movie called The Backup Plan, starring Jennifer Lopez. I'm not completely certain why, but it struck hard to my feelings I have been experiencing lately (am I pregnant?).
Entry 42:

I never thought I would love again
I never stopped to think it through
That someone that I once knew
Would come strolling back to me again.

What is truly happening?
Am I hallucinating?
Or has my life turned round to see...

I can love you again
Love springtime again
Count pedals on the flowers
Sit and talk with you for hours
And maybe even kiss you on the lips again

Love is a many splendered thing
It gives a person wings
When all they've had were doubts
Of ever flying

Have i gone karazy
Is my vision truly hazy
Or has my sight finally begun to see...

I can love you again
Love springtime again
Count pedals on the flowers
Sit and talk with you for hours
And maybe even kiss you on the lips again

There was a time not so long ago
I thought I had you figured out
But now, maybe, you've finally shown
The true colors, inside and out so that

I can love you again
Love springtime again
Count pedals on the flowers
Sit and talk with you for hours
And maybe even kiss you on the lips again

Jazz/Ballad style

Old ties come back. Good or Bad?

Wow I am super duper behind. It has definitely been due to all the homework and "extra credit" I've been doing the past few week. I have been feeling the strain though having not written out my thoughts every day like I should and would like to get back into the habit of. So the title of this entry is due to a person coming back into my life that I never thought would even try to come back after what happen during the month of June. I am not one to hold a deep grudge, but when someone completely ignores you for an entire week without any type of response it leaves a mark. And unfortunately for me, mine is still rather tender and not quite healed over. Entry :

Laying on my bed, just thinking things through
Wonderin what in the world kept you.

Lying back I feel the scar that you left on me
Wishing that you could just let me be

This bipolar persona I carry now
Is due to what you did. you ask how

You broke my heart so many times
The middle fell right out
I've been tryin to hide the pain inside
All the memories and the doubts
But now you stand and wait for me
To choose to stay or leave
Right now my answer is...
Not now

You came back like a rocket streaming 'cross the sky
Back then I would've hitched the ride, right now I only cry

The clouds once white have now turned grey
I don't know what to do or say

This bipolar persona I carry now
Is due to what you did. you ask how

You broke my heart so many times
The middle fell right out
I've been tryin to hide the pain inside
All the memories and the doubts
But now you stand and wait for me
To choose to stay or leave
Right now my answer is...
Not now

I tried so hard to reach you
But you never answered back
My heart was always open
And then you made it crack


You broke my heart so many times
The middle fell right out
I've been tryin to hide the pain inside
All the memories and the doubts
But now you stand and wait for me
To choose to stay or leave
Right now my answer is...
Not now