New Beginnings

It has been quite a long time since I have posted here. I know, I say that every time I write new post now. It just makes me realize how little I post on this blog nowadays. It has been quite a journey from the last time I wrote. That journey has brought me to this place of balance, inner peace and calm. The difference the past couple months have made on my life are tremendous. I have never in all my life felt the way I do now - so at-one with myself, so attuned to my senses, feelings, wants, needs, dreams. Strangely enough it all began with the simple desire of another. I know this might sound a little bizzarre, assure you it is quite true. This man that took the initiative and extended out an invitation literally changed my whole perspective on life in a matter of days. I too now have desires that may or may not be reciprocated by this individual, but I have come to a point in my life where no matter what may happen with this situation I know I will be able to push forward and take each new stride forward with more strength, courage and knowledge than I have ever had before. I cannot thank this man enough for all of the things he has given me. The interesting part is that I am quite certain he has no idea he has impacted my life as much as he has. It is strange to think that all it took was a simple question that then turned to a statement. I know those of you who actually regularly read this may be wondering who this man could be and what it was that he said to give me this new start on life...I feel that it would be inappropriate to share those details here considering the amount of talking and discussing I have already had with a handful of my closest friends. Just know that I am doing well and that I continue to see a brighter tomorrow because someone extended their hand to me and I finally took hold.

A New Chapter Begins

Well hello everyone!!! It's been a mighty long time since I have written anything here. I sincerely as sincerely can be apologize. My laziness has struck many aspects of my life lately. I hope to change that attitude towards one more positive and life enhancing. So I have recently taken up a song writing class at my college. I thought that maybe I should write my newest song here since my best ideas have been posted on this page. Plus my ideas seem to flow better here for some reason. Once again, here we go:

Can't remember
What was her name
Why can't I think
What did he say
Where is this place
There's a missing link
Don't know that step
Who just called me
Where did she go?
Did you say that
How do you spell that
There's something I don't know

It has a name you see
this game of who, where, when
We all have played it once or twice
No need to grab a pen

It's called a brain fart
the hearty brain fart
It creeps into our brains
To make us go insane
A lovely brain fart

Now how'd that go again
Is your name ross or len
Did you take notes today
Cause I cannot relay
What was that song again
How much did I just spend
What did you just say
Oh man what was your name
What time is it today
I don't recall
When did you call


It's an annoying trait
When you try to concentrate
And find that there's no use
Can't let your thoughts run loose

It's called a brain fart
A bloody brain fart
It makes you squint your eyes
Once you have realized
the lovely brain fart

Just take some time to think
Can't just force out the stink
It has to run its course
But no need to feel remorse

Cause it's a brain fart
a frickin brain fart
It makes us whine and squeal
Forever we will deal
With the bloody bain fart

OMG!!! So much better than the other song I wrote...and more fun :)

Such a long time...

Well tonight I was up thinking about a lot. I have been trying to get back to writing more outside of my school work and tonight seemed to be my night to start. I realize I have been void from this blog for many months now. I guess it was due to lots of stress and such. Hopefully now this can be a place to de-stress instead of be a place to avoid whilst in stressful times.

I'm so frightened
So scared to think it through
That maybe our relationship was never a me and you
I played my cards so willingly
How stupid was I not to see
That maybe what I thought I'd seen was never meant to be
This love was a daydream
Merely, sincerely my lovesick daydream

3 months ago it started out
as nothing more than my self doubt
that anyone would take a glance at me
but then we met my heart beat loud
as you arrived looking so proud
I thought my luck had fin'ly changed it's key
But Was this all just a day dream
Merely, sincerely a lovesick daydream?

A month went by, my heart was full
never thought i'd reach the goal
of finding love that'd last a year or more
you kept your cool just as you had
it made me think that you were glad
to share your life with me with open doors
But was this all just a daydream
merely, sincerely a lovesick daydream?

Now looking at the situation
there seems to be a complication
between my thoughts and yours. oh what a mess
My heart was full up to the brim
Thought that our chances were more than slim
NOt so it seems my heart is in distress
this was all just a daydream
merely, sincerely a lovesick daydream